How come everything turns out. Leaving me with more doubts. I feel like im upside down. And i dont wanna be here

I go right, shoulda gone left. And I say things I should of not said.Look at me in this big mess I dont wanna be here

Where to? Where do I go?

If you've never tried then you'll never know

How long do I have to climb

Up on the side of this mountain of mine?

Look up, I look up at night

Planets are moving at the speed of light

Climb up, up in the trees

Every chance that you get is a chance you seize

How long am I gonna stand
With my head stuck under the sand?
I'll stop before I can stop
Or before I see things the right way up

All that noise and all that sound

All those places I got found

And birds go flying at the speed of sound

To show you how it all began

Birds came flying from the underground

If you could see it then you'd understand

Ideas that you'll never find
Or the inventors could never design
The buildings that you put up all lit up

The sign that I couldn't read

Or a light that I couldn't see

Some things you have to believe

But others are puzzles, puzzling me

How long before I get in? before it starts, before I begin, how long before you decide? before I know what it feels like

I'll always look out for you, my heart is yours, it's you that I hold on to, and I know I was wrong, but I won't let you down,

Try to smile no matter what, cause you never know when your smile could lighten up someone's day as well as it will lighten up mine.

Rules are meant to be broken! Know the rules, and break it anyway you want, anywhere you want and anytime you want!

DREAM BIG, THINK BIG, ACT BIG

and just let it happen.

This is so wrong. I can't go on

It's time to hang it up and end it right

It like an angel came by and took me to heaven.

They dont matter at all
                  Cause this life's to long
                               And LOVE it's much to strong                  

Know for sure
 That I'll never let you go

This is my moment to walk alone, let me walk free, can't you see?
I need to know where I'm going I need to find my own way. I won't let that to you.

You and I both know it can't work. It's all fun and games, 'til someone gets hurt.

I want to learn the feelings of living, 

don't walk in front of me 'cause you don't let me see my way and I want so badly to enjoy life.

Don't put me limits it's my life and I will carry on like nothing,

I don't want you near, but at the same time I need you to stay close to me. I don't want to lose you.

You are impossible to find, just stay where you are.

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears. Let it fill my soul and drown my tears

When it was dark now there's light. Hush now I see a light in your eyes. All in the eyes of a boy.

I'm free to say WHATEVER I like,

if it's wrong or right, it's alright!

Cause when I stare in your eyes, it couldn't be better.

Sometimes we feel like nobody here is gonna hold us to be safe.
but
in the less expected they appear from the nowhere

Everything I want is in front of me.
but actually I'm blind 
needing your eyes

You kept me waiting with all my hands full and now are empty not needing you.

Full of feelings you will never see.